Happier without you

I died a little about a month ago when the Tall one and I broke up. I mean the first time, not the second time. I cried for quite a while. 30 whole minuets. I felt like Bella did in Twilight, like my heart had been taken with him. Like there had been a hole punched into my chest. I curled up on the fetal position and cried. He said he made a huge mistake like 5 minuets afterwards. I took him back saying if he did it again it would be final. A couple of weeks ago, he broke up with me again. I warned him, saying it was gonna be final. He wanted to anyway. That night like 20 minuets after breaking up, I found this video on YouTube...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v==youtube_gdata_

In case that's wrong, its the song 'Long Distance' by 'Bruno Mars'. As soon as I listened to it, I started crying my eyes out. I made it our official song without his notification.

The next morning, he texts me and his new signature, instead of 'Crystal<3', it said 'Brianna<3' and that fucking pisses me off. He said he wanted to break up because we lived to far away and we didnt see each other that often. I agreed with that and didn't cry. Then he does this shit?! Hell. No. I didn't respond, he asked why we couldn't just be friends.

'Because you lied about why you wanted to break up'

He basically said that we were gonna break up anyway whether it be now or a year from now. The only way he would know that, is if he planed on breaking up with me. I had absolutely no intention on breaking up with him... I loved him... Off topic, I didn't respond and Meg put on here what she sent to him, I also had the Flirt textin him. I have no clue what she said, but he called me... Three times. I got tired of hearing the phone ring so on the third I answered and just went 'Ok, uh huh, sure, cool, ok' and just agreed with whatever he said. I had a lot of anger in my voice though and he kinda backed down when I answered with 'What?!' I tried to be nice and kept sayin 'Hope you and Brianna stay together. She better take care of you.' I dont know why I did it, I just... Did. Anyway, shortly after me saying that, his mom starts texting me.

'hey Crys, Tall has never met Brianna. This is his friend tryin to introduce them so don't think bout her. Myself, I wish we lived closer. Your older and so sweet.'

That pissed me off(About him never meeting Brianna) that he would do that. Don't remember what I said but...

'No, this Brianna chick just came into the picture 2 days ago. I try to tell him that he can't let his friends rule his life. I have gave him hell bout what he has done to you for a girl he never met. It's stupid.'

'It is stupid. He obviously didnt care for me like I thought he did.'

'I no he does care for you. It's just Tall is a follower. I told him he need to b himself do what he wants not what no one else wants.
I don't know what is wrong with him this week since he got back from his dads. Sorry the ways he actin.'

'Its fine. He made his decision and he can't take it back.'

'Alright, I still want y'all to be friends'

'So do I, we just won't be more than that.'

'Ok, I understand.'

'The first and second were enough, I don't think I could handle a third time.'

'oh, he done it 2 times to u?'

'Ya, but he said he 'was having a bad day' and didn't know what he was doin.'

'Yes well guys/men when they have a bad day they are a you know what. This time he don't know what he is doin neither.'

That's not obvious! He's just young, they're all stupid at that age. It just makes me mad. He knew my dad didn't approve of him, so Tall said he wanted to meet him so he could make things right. He wanted to prove my dad wrong. He kept saying the 'Long distance relationships never work out.' tall would always say that his one would work, that he would do what ever he could to make it work. They were all lies.

Some texts I saved from Tall

Talkin about directly after he asked me out.

'I couldn't stop thinkin about you.'

'I was nervous when I asked you out.'

'whenever I first saw you I thought you were cute.'

Then taking about what we liked in each other.

'Well, you are the cutest girl I've ever seen. You are really funny. I like that you like me. I like your personality. You are honest and I would change nothing about you because I love you a lot.'

Random texts. Don't remember what we were talkin about.

'Ok, about once a week I will call you but I'm tryin to save up my own money so I can come up there more.'

'I have 80 dollars I'm tryin to get 200 so I can come up there'

'Your welcome love. Your the cutest most awesome girlfriend in the universe.'

This was the day he went back to Georgia, the same day we broke up... Like, 39 minuets after this text...

'I wish I didn't have to go home. I love you and in sorry that we don't live in the same state. I feel so bad right now. I have to leave the girl I love.'

I remember getting that text and thinking 'How could he get any more perfect?' I actually thought that a couple days after we got together. He was always asking questions about how we could improve our relationship. He kept satin he wanted it to be perfect. *Sigh* I never would have thought this is how I would end. I didn't think it would end. Meg, before you leave a fucking nasty comment or make a post telling me how stupid I am for still caring about him, shut your Face. I loved him and 'Trying to forget someone you loved is like trying to remember someone you never met.' he made me so happy. He was my first kiss, which will also be my last. Tall was from out of state. He didn't see all the sluts around here. (I am NOT talking about the people that blog here.) All the guys here do and since I'm not one if them, since I'm not one of the 'pretty girls that all the guys want', no one will want me. But Tall, if your reading this blog, now you know what I felt like when we broke up, and I want you to know, that I'm better without you. I'm glad we broke up, I can find someone to actually hold hands with everyday! Someone to hug everyday! Someone who can PROVE they love me every fucking day! Im happier without you. Have a nice fucking day!


Crystal Poppin'
(Poppin what? My peelllls!!!)
(Lol)